i have rituals- they have changed over the years- things like checking to make sure the refridge is closed tight, the garbage is taken out, windows are shut-i'm leaving for a while and when i come back i want my home to be as a left it-kind of rituals. with the people that i love i go through a similar process. telling them i love them in a big way giving them a hug and a kiss and a hug and a squeeze of the hand and then i look at them and take a mental picture-lately i have been taking selfies :) like i said my rituals have changed/evolved over the years. i also go through the if i die this is where the important papers are... i have been having this conversation with my boys for YEARS. when they were little i wanted them to be prepared, and we needed to have a plan, ya know-just incase. this conversation freaks them out a little (LOT). i really do not do this to freak them out - i do it so that i know they have tools and well, we have a plan.
this trip i'm going on caused me to update my important papers and have... the TALK. my boys humor me while they are visually uncomfortable. we talk about what to do with stuff and it usually ends with one or both of them say -this is dumb your not going to die. to be honest, i'm totally okay with the conversation ending like this, it works, ya know :)
one of the driving forces of me going on an epic adventure like this one is-life is precious-and short... so i'm going toward the joy, every single chance i get :) rather its eating dessert before the main course or dancing around the house to a new song i just downloaded OR flying around the world with my best friend because-i can!
i'm still struggling with what to put in my back pack (this is my packing ritual lol) but i'm ready to take this giant leap and enjoy every single moment with reckless abandon.
