so here i am heading into the last b-day in my forties. as i inch ever closer to 50 i have to be real honest, i thought i was okay with fifty but i'm not gonna lie it's a huge number in my book. i remember vividly when my parents turned a half century. my mom was totally cool with it. my dad, not so much. i think that is why my sister and i got him a sympathy card that year hehehehe. seriously though, when your a kid every adult is what, fifty lol (okay maybe not too serious).
the older part doesn't bother me, it really doesn't-the math however gets me a little crazy head. i guess thats why the word "open" picked me this year. what does that mean? "not closed or barred. set as to permit passage through. to render unobstructed." like i have mentioned before, when a word picks me it usually means there is gonna be a street fight and some blood shed, because the universe is fixing to teach me something. meh whatcha gonna do. try and be open to the idea that life is temporary- and navigating in that fragility with fierce/tenderness is living. i read a meme the other day that said "you live every day, you only die once" and i was thinking yeah except when your nikki sixx from motely crue, that guy is like a cat #ninelives.
Chapter 48 from Monybean on Vimeo.
- this year my, oldest turned 30 (THIRTY) he would not let me put 30 candles on his cake for practical reasons
- finally found a skin product that works for me (not to look young or anything, just to feel good)
- went to see bohemian rhapsody in the theater, i forgot so many things about that era and seeing that movie sparked memories #lovelove
- i am still a plant killer-yeah during the zombie apocalypse i should not be in charge of the garden because we will starve
- ellie and i had our first solo sleep over :) one of us was way more tired than the other
- bought a magic eight ball for important decisions :) yes its just as fun as you remember and if you don't like the answer you just try again lol
- max played baseball again this year and did so great-seriously becoming quite the ball player! sidenote: my boys were busting my chops about how to keep their mother quiet at a game... bring ellie lol stinkin' brats
- my youngest turned 28 - i realize they have been adults for a while but for what ever reason this year i have accepted this lol disclaimer: i will still always refer to them as my boys no matter how old they get!
- after many weeks of bedrest for my daughter in-law (because baby elmo - a name ellie and i chose because no one knew his name until a week before he arrived- kept trying to come see us too soon) we welcomed adam to our clan
- max started middle school... #nowords
- experienced my first vip box seat dmb concert #somuchfun
- one carrot cake, two days before the day, three generations, loads of matches, 49 candles and i made a wish and started the last chapter of my forties
